Normal day let me be aware of the treasure you are.
Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow.
~ Mary Jean Irion ~
AH! It’s that time of the year again…when the stress levels grow exponentially and the need and sense for “me” time is the only thing filling my mind… But this year, well, is kind of different. There are so many lessons life would like to teach us…whether we’re willing to learn or not. Life doesn’t pretty much care who you are or what you’ve done… and that’s the fun (and sometimes sad) part about it…
Well… I know this time of year and the pressures it can bring with it. I have been there… In years past, I moaned, and groaned, and cried about the usual casualties of time… relationships, friendships, fun, vivaciousness and life itself… but then I realized… “It’s not life that stopped… I just stopped living life”…and I vowed to turn it all around and never again let it happen…
Fast forward to today, and I just caught myself reading THE most depressing (but funny enough TRUE) article. And what stood out to me in this depressingly true article were the words “TICK TOCK CHIP CHIP”… because that is exactly what happens… the ticking clock of our lives chips away at the things that [we think] matter most in our lives, and later we realize… “Oh… there’s been another casualty”…
Well… yes… there’s been a casualty… there was one last year… one the other year and many more over the years past… and to be honest, I have realized that once I have identified the next casualty, something within me lets go… and creates room for new experiences, new lessons… new everything…
The art of letting go… that’s what I have deemed it. Reaching that point where you realize “hmmm… I’m getting too old to blame it on life, time and whatever else is there to blame it on”… am I growing up? Maybe or maybe not…
The reason I stopped blogging was not time… it was me… uninspired and brain dead…
The reason I stopped calling was not busy-ness…there was no urge…no force pushing me to do it
The reason I stopped singing is not school… it was me… making a decision to stop living
The reason I didn’t get that awesome “R500” deal for a professional photo-shoot was not the fact that “they “ wouldn’t do it with me… it was me… too afraid to live and let live…
The reason I didn’t do it… was because I was too busy trying to convince myself that the imaginary monster I’d formed in my head was not towering over me as I cowered into a little corner…drenched in fear and petrified to my wits end…
These are the lessons life is teaching me…and learning them is painful… yet somehow, I am beginning to comprehend these lessons… even though they hurt…
Life has taught me…
Time is a circus, always packing up and moving away. (Ben Hecht)
P.S I like the circus!!!!!
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