Soon the skies will be coloured with the reds...blues...golds...greens...of fireworks and everyone (well most people) will be shouting and ululating and whatever else people do to mark the end of another chapter...another full stop... perhaps a beginning. Who knows?
My year has ended on a rather interesting note... i am battling with the fact that i am growing "older" (gulp). My years will soon be hard to express with just my fingers and toes... that scares me because with that extra 1 comes more responsibility, unwelcomed freedom and more pain with the need to stay dependent when i should be ... spreading my wings and learning how to fly?!
Another thing that has come out of this year is...closure i guess. For the first time i was brutally honest with myself and i truly let go of the pain and the agony of the loss of a loved one... the what ifs... the maybes... the could have beens... for some odd reason (i think it has to do with a little child asking me about the experience...), so many years down the line i have finally let go. And in letting go I have perhaps gained the desire (whats lacking is the confidence) to write a memoir... a little something special... a book maybe in loving memory. We'll see...
2010... It's been blissful and right through i've been caged in His love. "My benighted soul has come to understand that there's a God, that there's a Saviour too" (Phillis Wheatly - On Being Brought From Africa To America)
....in all honesty i do not have any wondrous things to say or blog about. i am at an utter blissful peace... u know how Sandra Bullock as Leigh Anne Tuohy on The Blind Side (the movie) smiles at the end...thats how i feel...
HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!!!!
MUCH LOVE AND REMEMBER STAY CAGED!
